God, this is embarrassing. To ME!

I haven’t posted at all yet in April and here I come with pages out of my sketchbook of whining... very real but also ew? This time I come laden with emotions I can’t rationalize or intellectualize and it makes me feel like I’m inherently bad for feeling this way... it makes me uncomfortable that I can’t attribute a logical reason to feeling this way and all I can do is doodle in my sketchbook about it. Pulling out those sketchbook pages definitely helped with just... realizing that something is wrong and tying it back to lifestyle and environment, so at the very least I can tell something is up from these pages. So today, I took trash out of my room and opened my windows! Now it’s just, piles and piles of clothes. Oh my God.

Yes the doodle is essentially the same from page to page... they’re the beautiful twin sisters of ugly emotions.

What are emotions you can’t intellectualize that make you uncomfortable? How do you handle them?Β 
Do you let other people know when you’re feeling that way?Β 
Is there anything physical you can do to help you ride out that emotional wave instead of turning inward?
A Song For You ❀︎
Thank you to my friend Shemayah for recommending this song to me... it’s everything and the whole world to me right now. Willow has grown tremendously as a musician! I hope I get to look back at this blog and feel like I’ve grown a lot as a person and creative as well.